UPDATE ON COLLEGE

I am now aware of the fact that when I try to go to school while living at home in Bridgeport, I don't do well. I finally moved back in with my mother to try and attend school in east Texas. I'm doing leaps and bounds better. It started when I decided I wanted to go back to school. I have a hard time with it even being single with no children, so I cannot imagine what it must be like for those who have children that try to go back to school. And I even have the advantage being able to not work while I attend school. So when I went back this last semester to try and recover my GPA from a very bad time at UNT, I was so afraid that I wouldn't do well. It was really a make or break semester for me. I took four online classes. I do not recommend this for ANYONE. It is just soooo much work. The work is not any harder than classroom assignments...it's just twice as much, if not more. I let my grades fall at UNT because of some things I was dealing with personally. I was so embarrassed when I got my transcripts from them saying that my GPA was..well let's just say under a 1.0. I am not a dumb person. I've just made some dumb decisions in my life, and I think I finally realized what I might be throwing away when I opened that transcript. So I worked extremely hard on my grades this time around. No one really knows what it meant for me to prove that I could do it. I graduated high school with honors, I was given all kinds of scholarships, and I am not going to let that all go to waste. I want to succeed. I want to be able to support myself and not have to lean on others. I got my grades in this last week, and I have to say that I'm proud of what I can do when I actually try. That was the problem, really. I lacked the ambition to try. School is not hard for me...in most cases, I don't even have to study. The hardest part for me is making myself do the work. So seeing as how I signed up for online classes, I knew that my biggest obstacle would be to make myself do the work. And I did it. I was aiming for four solid A's. But I will take two A's and two B's. My semester GPA was a 3.54. I just have one more class to retake...and that's astronomy...a class that I wouldn't have taken in the first place had UNT not required more science that other university cores. I'm hoping to get back to A&M-Commerce...the only school I've ever loved...with at least a 2.5 GPA. Wish me luck for this coming summer session, because I have enrolled in Astronomy to right a wrong...and Marketing. We'll see how this goes.